Borrowed this book from the library for Hubby to read. Perfect for preparing him for this exciting journey. The book is cleverly put together including personal experience of expectant fathers. The constant message is for men to try to better understand what we are going through and useful tips are given for survival during this period. I read the book myself and found it quite funny. Highly recommended!
This morning went for my 2nd Beta Blood test. The nurse called early at around 11am with the results. It's a definite BFP! HCG levels raised to 502mIU/mL from last Friday of 182mIU/mL. A home pregnancy test(HPT)can pick out 25mIU/mL.
Jerome congratulated me for being pregnant and I congratulated him for being pregnant too. Just borrowed a guide book "Dad's Pregnant Too" from the library on Sat just for him- a funny survival guide book just right for him. :)
So I'm now 4 weeks & 6 days pregnant based on the Egg retrieval (ER) date. The baby or rather the fetus is still microscopic. By week 5, it will grow into a small raisin. How amazing to imagine that this is taking place right now in my tummy!
My 1st scan to look at the baby will be on 21st Oct. By then, we should be able to hear the heartbeat & see the little fellow. 21st Oct seems such a long time away!
When i went for the pregnancy blood test this morning, i told the nurse to call my hubby regarding the results. Told her jokingly that i can't take the excitement. Before the test. Hubby and I already had a good talk. Regardless of results, we'll stay positive. If we fail this 1st round of IVF, we'll go book ourselves a nice holiday for Dec hols to celebrate our anniversary. So when we got home, I read the papers and began looking at the tour packages- my consolation prize.
At 3pm, the call finally came. Hubby talked to her in the study while I lazed on the couch, dunno what to expect. Finally, hubby put down the phone and came running out, exclaiming, "I'm going to be a father." The HCG level is 182! IT's a BFP!!! We were crying and hugging each other. It's too good to be true!
However, there's a need to repeat the blood test on Monday to check that the HCG level is rising.so I guess that's when they can really confirm the pregnancy. So guess, another round of waiting & anticipation...
But for now, I can say I'm pregnant! Gonna tok to my babies now :)
Now at home on the couch with 2 feet up. A fren's advice after she had successfully conceived her beautiful daughter after her 1st IVF cycle was to bed/couch rest during this 2weeks. Had finished watching an entire Korean period drama series, surfed the net, joined an on-line forum for IVF support group, read half a book, enjoying life (while hubby's cooking & cleaning the house) or rather feeling bored... Hence decided that I shall blog about my TTC & IVF journey so far.
2010- Seen Dr K Loi at Kk who precribed 6 cycles of clomid.
Did HSG and clear test. Hubby also cleared sperm test.
Feb 2011-Seen Dr Sadana who prescribed Letrozole.
Decided to go for IVF.
17 June 2011- first appointment to see Dr Loh at KK clinic D.
1st ultrasound found that I had small ovaries and ovarian reserves could be low. Relieved and depressed at the same time that Dr was finally able to find a problem. But does this problem arise from all the ovulation drugs that I've taken before? The 2 previous drs did ultrasounds for me too but never report any abnormalities. But felt that I'm now in good hands. We were referred to ivf clinic & booked our ivf counseling session for July. Next appointment to see is right before the counseling session.
23 June- Blood test for AMH, FSH, LH, E2 & Prolactin
27 July- 2nd appointment to see Dr Loh at Clinic D.
He reviewed results of the blood test and said it's okay to proceed with IVF for next AF cycle.
Hubby & I took blood tests for HIV, Hep. B, VDRL, Rubella & Hep C
After lunch, we returned to IVF centre to officially register for IVF, briefed by the nurse about the costs involved (9-11k before subsidy), then briefed by a Dr about the entire IVF procedure. I've got a prescription for Microgynon tablet- a contraceptive pill meant to regulate my AF.
That day, parking fees at Kk is over $10. Imagine the number of hours we spent there. A long day at Kk.
Aug -Sept 2011: IVF
Stage 1: On OCP before suppression of body's natural release of hormones
Aug 3- D1-AF reports- calls KKIVF
Aug 4- D2- starts Oral Contraceptive pills Microgynon x 21 days
Aug 18- D16- starts daily Lucrin injection
Aug 28- AF reports again and cleared up just in time for...
Sept 1- Baseline Ultrasound and blood test.
Stage 2- Stimulation of the ovaries to produce follicles containing the eggs
Sept 2- starts daily puregon pen injection (200iu). Continues with Lucrin injections.
Sept 9- 1st ultrasound to check size of follicles. Dr reviewed and got another dosage for 2 puregon injections.
Sept 10- 2nd scan to check follicle size.
Stage 3: Maturation of eggs(oocyctes) recovery.
Sept 11- 8.30pm Pregnyl injection at KK 24hrs O&G.Stop Lucrin & puregon injection.
Stage 4: Egg retrieval and fertilization
Sept 13- Egg Retrieval under GA while hubby collected sperm sample.
Woke up before the entire procedure was over and could feel prodding and pain.
Retrieved 18 eggs which I thought was a good number. Recovered pretty quickly post ER and had Macdonalds for lunch. For the 1st time, I had hot Milo to go with my meal.
Felt bloated and could see obvious bulge at tummy. Manageable cramps.
Stage 5: Embryos Transfer
Sept 15- blood test to check for risk of OHSS.
2 embryos were transferred back while hubby was in room watching. A pretty amazing moment. A photograph of the embryos transferred was given. The 2 little ones that I hope are growing well within me now.
Pregnancy support- 2 tablets of utrogestan(100mg) insertion 3 times daily.
Sept 21- Blood test for progesterone levels.
Sept 30- Blood test BHCG to test for pregnancy.
After all the visits to the Drs, Kk, medication, jabs, blood tests & scans, cant believe how time flies. So now, I'm just playing the waiting game and keeping my fingers and toes crossed like so many others.
I'm now back teaching in school for the past 3 weeks. And "Do you remember me?" is the question that I'm been asked almost everyday in school. Ex-pupils will come up to me, greet me and ask me this question. I remember most of them. But sometimes, I look at their faces and I really can't remember who they are but obviously they remember me.
Just yesterday, a P6 girl came up to me and asked me the same question. I looked at her and her name tag but I honestly don't remember having taught her. She explained that I had once read a story to her in the school library when she was in P2, that was 4 years back. I almost asked her which story. Silly me :P
I'd like to think I've indeed made a difference and that's why they remember me. I like it when children sees me, waves to me and calls me. I do remember my days back in school when I will purposely avoid certain teachers who crossed my paths. I'm glad I'm not a teacher the children normally avoid.
I'm not the best teacher but I'm certain I'm one of the better ones. I try my best and I believe I touch lives and make a positive difference!
We seek to find answers to our questions and ask why and sometimes we don't like the answer...
Last Friday, hubby and I went to KK and met our 3rd fertility Dr. He's the 3rd one we've seen in KK within 2 years. He was recommended by a friend who has conceived under his IVF treatment. He was the head of the department and was reputed to be the one with miracle hands.
Before we started on our long journey trying to conceive, we didn't think we would have to 'travel' so far and now to consider IVF. Just like the other appointments we had, we had to wait for over an hour to finally see him. In his office was a large display of photographs of babies and children successfully conceived from IVF.
Finally, Dr Loh came and he was friendly and asked some questions while he flipped through my medical file and noted that I've been through many cycles of clomid and Letrozole. Then just like the other 2 doctors I've seen before him, I was given an ultrasound. But what followed was pretty unexpected. He said that I had small ovaries! Finally, he had found the answer to explain the infertility problem that we're having! Although the other 2 Drs had done the same, all they could say was that everything looked normal. Now, Dr Loh had found something and I don't like what he found.
At that point in time, I didn't know what was the real implications of having small ovaries. But one thing for certain was that I could sense a certain urgency in his decision to let me start IVF as soon as possible, looking at August and with a high dosage of medication. While we were waiting for Dr Loh at his office, I had asked the nurse when was the earliest time we could start IVF and she said October. So August is half the usual waiting time.
But before that, I still had to go through some blood tests to check certain things before we're ready to start IVF.
I'm relieved that Peace & Prosperity has prevailed but it's easy to see the huge swing of votes towards the opposition. I'm saddened that GY and his team had to be the sacrificial lambs as a result of this- people wanting a 'loud-speaker' for people's complains.
Isn't there other ways for people to reflect their views more promptly and effectively to our leaders. Why do we tend to complain behind their backs and then choose to voice out all these frustrations using our votes? I hope that the PAP will really change its way of doing things and learn from their loss. I hope the leaders will take this opportunity given by the people to show that they can indeed fulfil their promises and make Singapore a truly better home for everyone. The opposition will definitely come back stronger come the next election. If the PAP wants to stay in government, it must really show the heart for the people.
And please be more selective about the candidates. Try to recruit some of the capable and popular ones from the opposition parties. They just want to serve the people and many just joined their parties months before the election. So offer them a better opportunity to better serve the people. I see this as a win-win solution.
People kept talking about change. At the same time, people should really look at themselves and seek to change themselves first. Stop asking about what the country can do and has to do for you, what can you do for it? Be the change you want to see. If you want Singapore to be gracious, just look at all the rubbish left behind in the stadiums after the rallies and the gathering... How do you want the country to become gracious when you're not even gracious yourself.
While people are quick to voice their unhappiness and complains, we should be mindful about our influences on the children. I would hate to see children growing up to take things for granted, who only see the faults of others, who are quick to blame and complain and being generally negative. I hope that the children will grow up to be a grateful lot who don't take things all for granted.
It is now time for us to look hard at ourselves and ask how we want our lives to be better. Start the change from within...
P/S Now I feel silly for worrying about PAP losing majority of the seats. But the fear was real then...
I found this most disturbing... Are your ready to cast your vote tomorrow and get the change that you want? Are you ready for a coalition government? Please look at the big picture before casting your vote tomorrow.
Thanks to Mr Moh Hon Meng for his Facebook notes...
Please share this link with your friends before its too late!
My friends say that I have written with my head but not my heart.
So this last note is from the heart.
Sir, I am a huge admirer of what you have done for Singapore
in the 50s to the 80s. But I must say that you are out of touch with young
Singaporeans. You said in your latest book that you do not know what Facebook
is, and yet it could be the very thing that will bring the PAP down.
Your ‘repent’ comment on Aljunied residents lost a lot of
votes all over Singapore. Normally rational, pro-PAP friends of mine are now
voting opposition because of the remark. The ST today reported that a few
people said the same to Mr. George Yeo.
Many of us think you are still one of the finest minds in
the world, even at your age, but your ‘talk-down’ manner to Singaporeans must
change. ‘Father’ does not know best. Please let PM Lee lead, and be seen to be
the one leading.
In your time, your double first was rare, and my parents’
generation said “he went overseas, he’s got double first, let him lead”. Today,
mainly as a result of your success in leading Singapore, you can’t throw a
stone in Raffles Place without hitting someone with impressive qualifications. We
are well-educated, well-travelled, plugged in and connected. Whether you
believe it or not, Singapore is safe with us.
I’m a huge admirer of your talent, your resolve, your hard
work and I truly believe that your heart is in the right place. I think you are
one of the finest PMs in the world and I am very proud to see you on the global
However, your team members are not as engaged. Some of them
do not care. Some of them are so arrogant, it is not just nauseating and
repelling, they make people want to take up arms and bring you down.
You’ve made it very difficult for a lot of people to vote
PAP. On the one hand, we want the stability and economic growth that the PAP
brings. Yet on the other, when we think about voting PAP, we cringe. We think,
if we vote PAP again, and give it a strong mandate, does it mean that we are
saying that we endorse the arrogant, unfair, uncaring things that the PAP has
done? Please, sir, you have to fix that.
I am Pro-PAP, but not a member. I don’t have to plug for
every vote. It is my running theme across all 3 notes – please vote for the
opposition only if you genuinely believe that they are of top notch quality and
will represent your voice well. It is not my place to say who is top quality
and who is not. Everyone has a different idea of what quality is. But if you agree that the quality of the candidates in your area is very bad, please do not vote for them.
I am genuinely alarmed at the number of people who have told
me that they are voting opposition regardless of who the candidates are. Not a
single one of my friends in Ang Mo Kio GRC is voting for PM Lee. More are
starting to say, bring the PAP down, let’s form a coalition government.
Please all, the opposition is not ready to take over the
government in this one election. This is not my opinion. Mr. Low Thia Khiang
said so many times. The day that he says he is ready, it is different. In any
case, if the PAP loses all the seats, and a coalition of opposition parties
form the government in this election, the Prime Minister is likely to be Mr.
Goh Meng Seng, the leader of the NSP, because he would have the most MPs. I’m
not saying he is not qualified. But I would have to agree with Mr. Low that
they are probably not ready at this one election.
People say “I don’t think so”, but they say in the same breadth that they and their friends are all voting opposition. Let me first share what the (illegal) bookies think. Last week they were giving odds for 1 GRC
to fall to the opposition. Then it became 2, and by May 2nd,
it was 4 GRCs and 4 SMCs. What’s the latest after last night’s rallies?
Investment professional sometimes sit in their ivory towers, but the bookies
are very close to the ground, and often have a very good read. The reality of
toppling the PAP, in this one election, is becoming more and more real.
Let me also share my investment behaviour. If everyone
around me tells me that they are not buying the product from a particular
company, I sell the stock straightaway, no matter how impressive their past
performance has been. In this case, however, I can’t sell the stock, because I am Singaporean.
So I am hoping to rationalise with my friends and fellowmen.
Again, from my heart, thank you all for your indulgence in reading this.
I’ve been asked by readers of the first note to defend ministers’ salaries, the PAP using lawsuits to destroy political opponents, the GRC system and the constant redrawing of boundaries, censorship and control of the media, treatment of elderly and the high level of foreigners in our local universities.
I’m doing this because the voices online are overwhelmingly anti-PAP, and I hope to provide some counter points. It used to be the other way round, when the voice was overwhelmingly PAP, and people spoke up for those against. In the interest of this new freedom of expression that we have online, let’s have all sides.
OK, here goes.
I remember in the late 80s when Mr. LKY announced that he would step down as PM. Many of my seniors were saddened and worried at first, but felt comforted that he would stay as SM. I remember vividly one person saying, “Let’s give him a $100 million payoff for the great job that he has done.” $100 million, $1 billion, I think if we had put that to a public referendum then, most Singaporeans would whole-heartedly say yes, let’s pay him, it’s peanuts compared to what he’s done.
When it comes to the issue of pay, again, it is about the heart being won, as I described in Part 1. When you have the people’s admiration and love, no amount is too high. When you don’t, even $1 is too much.
Recall also Mr. Wee Kim Wee, whom we all loved as President. The presidential pay was very low at that time, and after he stepped down, he was reportedly struggling to make ends meet. As Singaporeans, we said, we are a rich country, we don’t want our beloved leaders to be in this state.
I think our current minister salary structure had a sound logic when it started. The PAP was worried that the private sector was under-represented in cabinet, and the feedback to them was that no private sector individual would want to take a huge pay cut and join the government. So the issue of pay was tackled, pegged to the salaries of top professions. But as many of these corporate titans got invited to “tea”, one by one said no because they just didn’t want the job. How does one go from being a powerful corporate position to helping residents with leaking ceilings, noisy neighbours and carpark fines (which is 90% of an MP’s job)? Also, the personality traits that have made individuals successful in corporate life are often at odds with what’s needed to be a good politician. So the PAP still failed in attracting corporate bigwigs, as is again demonstrated by this current crop of new candidates.
I feel that it was good that the PAP went through this entire exercise, but since the corporate bigwigs are not interested, we should change the structure. I think Michelle Lee’s (SDP) suggestion of pegging it to median income is a good idea. This way, ministers’ salaries will rise when the incomes of the majority of Singaporeans rise.
I still believe that our leaders should be paid very highly though. They wield tremendous power and must not be tempted by corruption, which is a huge problem in many countries, first and third world. Also, other countries may pay lower salaries to their leaders, but they are entitled to a tremendous amount of perks, which when you add them all up, could cost the taxpayers a lot more. For our ministers, their only perk is security. Otherwise, they pay for their own house, car, holidays, their kids education etc.
There was a big debate in Parliament in the 90s about the special discounts that merchants willingly give to office holders. From that time on, all PAP office holders are told to pay full price for everything, unless the discounts are also given to all and sundry. There was once, back when I was with P&G, I saw Mrs Lee shopping at Fairprice at Coronation Plaza, and the store manager offered Mrs Lee the coupon discounts even though she didn’t have the coupon with her. She said no, and sent her driver back to cut out the coupon from the ST and bring it back. All for a $0.50 discount.
I believe the PAP has good, honest leaders who are very skilled at running the government. They just need to gain some humility and remember that they are servants, not lords. But for the job, pay them top salaries. My view holds true even if the opposition becomes ministers one day. They should be paid top salaries.
For now, perhaps we can draw a line here on the salary, and then set the peg at median incomes.
Use of lawsuits and other unfair means against political opponents
I believe this is the difference in style and context between the first two PMs, and PM Lee Hsien Loong. Chee Soon Juan was sued for the line “where is our money?” JBJ was sued for the line “I have made a police report”. I think similar things have been said this time round but I believe there will be no lawsuits. LHL doesn’t want it, and more importantly, Singaporeans will not stand for it.
We all know that LKY was tough and had thrown people into jail without trial in his day. I had the privilege of interviewing the late Lim Kim San a few years before he died, and he told me about how unsafe and unstable the country was in his day. My father also has stories to tell of gangsters, communists and unions. Was it the right thing for LKY to use those heavy-handed means? I think we all have different opinions. It’s hard for us to understand the situation of the country at that time, and I think those for whom LKY has used these tactics and their families, it must have been a terrible ordeal. On balance though, I believe that most Singaporeans probably benefitted.
But we are a different generation now, and I think LHL is an excellent PM who is slowly but surely taking the reins, and he will govern Singapore in a way that is suited to us.
The GRC and the constant re-drawing of constituency lines
Again, there is some difference in style in PM Lee. Recall that this time round, he increased the number of SMCs, reduced the size of the GRCs, and had minimal redrawing of lines. I think we will trend towards fairer fights, but it will not be overnight. Some things will take time to dismantle.
I feel that the GRC system, on its own, is neither good nor bad. It makes it harder for the opposition only when they do not have good candidates. But when they do, like this time round, the PAP stand to lose seats in blocks of 4 or 5, which is much more dangerous to them. There is also the real situation of a single “star” opposition candidate carrying 4 others through, like with Nicole Seah in Marine Parade.
Censorship and control of the media
I think this will also be relaxed over time, whichever party is in power, as the younger generation takes over. The young are used to new media, which has little or no censorship, and are less uptight and less conservative. As the generations shift, we will become more open and more liberal. It will come with its own set of problems, and some will be critical of those, but the way forward towards more openness is inevitable, whichever party is in power.
I think that old media is also opening up. If we count the number of pages in the ST given to the opposition in total this election versus last, I think that you will see that the space has more than doubled.
Maybe the issue here is that the PAP is not opening up fast enough? The situation is that for every cry from Singaporeans to open up faster, there is currently perhaps 2 cries from more conservative Singaporean to preserve traditional, conservative, moral and religious values. If you’re a politician, you do have to listen to the majority voice. In time the majority voice will change, and the government will change accordingly.
Old age care
I have aged parents, as do many Singaporeans. More can certainly be done here. None of us feel good seeing older Singaporeans picking rubbish, collecting cans and selling tissue paper. We do not want to foster a welfare mindset, but I believe that as far as the old are concerned, we can afford to be more “welfare” for this current generation of older Singaporeans, who are less educated. Younger Singaporeans are better educated and are likely to be better able to take care of our own needs in old age, or to still be economically productive and doing meaningful work, rather than collecting rubbish. I think the PAP is right that the way to help us in our own age is to ensure we have marketable economic skills. But for the current generation of old people, who did not have those learning opportunities, let’s do more.
High level of foreigners in our local universities
This is aimed at propping up our population numbers. The foreign workers are transient in nature in that a lot of them will return home some day. The PAP government has a long term blueprint to move Singapore into high value production (but this takes a long time) and hopefully by that time, a lot of the jobs can be filled by Singaporeans. In the meantime, we do need the low cost foreign worker to fill the low value jobs.
So the foreign workers do not form our core population numbers. With our fertility rate at 1.6, which is way below the replacement ratio of 2.2, we face a declining rate of population growth, which will be disastrous for our economy in the future. The solution is to get Singaporeans to have more babies and to take in young immigrants.
Taking them in after high school and having them schooled here, increases the chance that they will settle here and become citizens. It also makes it easier for them adapt to our culture at a young age. We also search for the smartest high school graduates, so that they will contribute to our future high value economy. A lot of them come from very poor villages, so if we do not give them scholarships, they cannot afford to come here.
I feel that if someone comes here at age 16, 17, 18 and finishes university here and becomes a citizen and get jobs, we should not think of it as jobs going to foreigners. These are jobs going to Singaporeans who were born elsewhere. This is nothing new. In fact, it has always been happening, except that they used to come mainly from Malaysia, but now from other places.
The solution to the number of spaces in the university is to build more universities, which is being done now.
“Vote with your conscience”
A few opposition candidates have exhorted us to “vote with your conscience”. I think that can mean different things to different people. The following are options that have been presented by various opposition parties.
a. Ask yourself whether your lives are better now than it was 5 years ago, and vote honestly.
b. Ask yourself who can best represent your views in Parliament and vote honestly.
c. Ask yourself who can give you a good future, and vote honestly.
Pritam Singh (WP), whom I am a fan of, asked “Are the ministers gods who are not replaceable?” In the same vein, we can ask “Are the ministers gods who make no mistakes?” That cannot be. They make mistakes, just as the opposition will, if they form the government. And we all know that.
If we looked at “a” and merely in the last 5 years, I think it may not be balanced because we went through a major global crisis, and many things are warped as a result. Some things need time to play itself fully out. So I think “b” and “c” are the important questions to ask.
For “b”, I feel that this time round, there are indeed a few opposition candidates who are excellent and who can articulate our views very well. However, there are a few who are not so good, and I don’t think it will do us any good, as Singaporeans, if we voted in opposition candidates who cannot do the job well.
“c”, for me, is the biggest question. Has the PAP gone off-track so much that our future is no longer secure? Does the opposition have a greater ability to ensure our future? In defence of the PAP, I would like to say that its confusing styles, its foibles, its mistakes, are because it is a party in transition. Let’s focus more on PM Lee Hsien Loong from here on forth, and not the elder Lee (who is 87 years old).
I am not proposing that the answer is PAP for everyone. Different people have different life stories and experiences. The PAP may not be right for them. If you’re in a constituency that has great opposition candidates and you like them and really think they can represent you very well, please vote for them. No one can say otherwise.
But what is the right thing to do if you are in a constituency where you honestly believe the opposition candidates are no good but you feel frustrated with the PAP? You know my personal answer, but maybe more people can give their views.
We all feel that we are part of something new, profound and powerful this time round. It’s the freedom of expression that we have online. It’s the quality of the alternative candidates. It’s the feeling that each of us can do something about what we believe in.
I’ve tried my best to offer what is strangely now the alternative view point. Those of you who’ve read these notes, I thank you for your indulgence.
When did this happen? It used to be that if you spoke up
against the PAP, you feared for your life. But now online
sentiment for the PAP has turned so overwhelmingly negative that I'm afraid to post this!
But what’s of note in this
election is that my friends have the courage to stand up and say what they
believe in, so I must do the same.
I am pro-PAP, but not a member. I am an entrepreneur, an
employer. I am 42 years old, a father of 2. I live in a HDB flat. I previously worked
in the finance industry for 11 years and was at one time a licensed investment
adviser in Singapore, Hong Kong and Malaysia. I have written on economics, business
and politics in various publications.
This is my defence of what the PAP has done. At the end
though, I present my main criticism of the PAP.
Forget the “Swiss standard of living”, we are fighting for
our survival. We are surrounded by third world countries with cheap, hungry and
hard-working labour. In the 1990s, businesses were leaving Singapore in droves
to set up in Malaysia, Vietnam and China. The business owners complained that
Singapore was too expensive to do business in. Singaporeans wanted “lifestyle”,
and eschew late hours, low pay and hard work. We want to be paid a high salary,
and yet leave at 6pm to have work-life balance. We want to sit in air-con
offices and not sweat in the sun. We want benefits for mothers, fathers and
older workers. We want companies to provide child care, medical care and long
(paid) compassionate, maternity and paternity leave. We want a lot of things.
It is not wrong to want these things. But from the point of view of employers
and investors, their response was basically this: “No thanks, Singapore. I’d
rather set up in some other country and maybe hire a few high value Singaporeans
to move and work there. Maybe.”
So the PAP government said “Please still come to Singapore.
We’ll let you hire the low cost, hard-working foreign workers that you need,
and give you land subsidy, tax incentives etc .” And the businesses came back.
Some of those that are more labour-intensive ended up with a higher percentage
of foreign workers. But a good number of higher value jobs, those in the
air-con offices, like marketing, accounting and finance, legal, design,
operations etc., went to Singaporeans.
This is at the low end. At the high end, the foreign
businesses said “Look, Singapore has got some good people, but not those at the
very high end. Not the mold-breaking engineers, not the Nobel Prize winners,
not the think-outside-the-box industrial designers. We need these people.” So
the PAP said “OK, let’s bring in these foreign talents (FT) as PRs. They will
impart skills to our people. We will also change our education system, add more
universities and research facilities, to try and achieve this. In time, we hope
to produce our own Nobel scientists.” And so the high end MNCs came also.
Many Singaporean SMEs benefitted from the presence of these
MNCs by providing products and services to them, creating more jobs for
Singaporeans and opportunities for Singaporean entrepreneurs.
It is not the PAP who has suppressed wages for Singaporeans.
It is global competition. The third world, hungry low cost worker, is
suppressing wages and causing jobs to be lost in the U.S., Europe and Japan,
not just here. If we do not offer some low cost workers, and do all we can to woo
these multinationals or even simply to persuade our OWN local companies NOT to
set up their operations overseas, we will lose a lot of Singaporean jobs.
Who are these foreign workers? They are construction
workers, ship-builders, domestic workers, nurses, cleaners, garbage collectors,
chambermaids etc. How many Singaporeans can we find for these jobs? Singaporeans
are getting more and more educated and all of us want to be supervisors and managers,
and this is good. But who would we manage and supervise? Yes, the FTs have
taken away some jobs that otherwise
could have been done by Singaporeans, it’s hard to finely calibrate these
things; but on balance, their presence ensures that businesses, and cushy,
well-paying jobs, remain here and create plenty of opportunities for local SMEs.
Housing policy and overcrowding in MRTs
The cause of the increase in prices for HDB flats is
shortage of supply. The demand has gone up with more people on the island, but
the HDB has only just started building flats. The solution is to create a lot
more supply, and this is already in the works. With higher supply, prices
Many economists will tell you that in the short term, there
are often imbalances between demand and supply which will lead to distortions
in prices. I believe that the price distortions will swing in the other
direction in 3 years time, when there would be too many houses to meet demand
(particularly if demand is being curbed, following the elections, if foreigner
inflows are curtailed). Over the long term however, the government’s policy
should be geared towards managing these swings, match supply and demand, and
ensure a slow, and affordable increase over time.
Could the increase in foreigner inflows and the number of
flats be better coordinated? Perhaps. But it is very fast to approve foreign
worker permits, particularly when key MNCs are pressurizing the government for
them, and especially when the financial crisis was upon us, whereas it takes a
few years to build flats. This mismatch has caused prices to skyrocket.
It is the same with the MRTs. More lines are being built,
but they take a long time.
Investment losses by the GIC and Temasek
It is not right to pinpoint a specific year when it comes to
investment performance. The long term performance needs to be considered. Even
Warren Buffet, the world’s greatest investor, lost billions in 2008, like GIC
and Temasek did. But he continued to invest, just as GIC and Temasek did, and
they recovered their losses when the recovery came in 2009 and 2010. The long term performance of GIC and Temasek has been commendable (based on the data that they released). An NSP candidate
did a simple calculation on Citigroup’s share price and concluded that the
government lost billions on that share alone. This is incorrect. Citigroup went
through a complex share dilution in 2009 which caused its share price to
plunge. But the Singapore government got a sweet deal and made billions in
profits from it. Maybe the issue here is more transparency on what GIC and
Temasek does, but let the issue be transparency, not making losses.
Flooding and escape of Mas Selamat
I believe these to be civil service lapses, not political
ones. As it is with the Nicoll Highway collapse, electrical outages, and the
likes. Heads have rolled at the civil service, as we’ve read, but I’m not clear
what some opposition parties want. Is it that we must have ministerial
resignations for these mistakes? The international community and most Singaporeans
would feel very unnerved if a minister resigned every time some mistakes like
A lot of the increase comes from the increase in prices of
food, oil and other commodities in the global marketplace, which we import. A
part of the reason is the tremendous liquidity that has been created by world
governments to combat the financial crisis. Some of this liquidity found its
way into the prices of some commodities. Climate change and fuel substitution also
contributed. The MAS is trying to mitigate this by letting the Sing Dollar strengthen.
Perhaps the issue is how we help the lower income cope, rather than say that
the PAP has caused the increase.
The ministry overspent on this; that is fact. The question that has been asked is “where is
the accountability?” I’m wondering, “what kind of accountability should there
be?” The ministry has already offered all the facts. In my view, it was the
first time this thing called a YOG was organized anywhere in the world, our
most important priority was to pull it off properly. In this case, it resulted
in overspending. But compare this to the F1. It was also the first time a night
race was held anywhere in the world, and there, the results were better than we
projected. I appreciate the risk-taking nature of our government in these
events. We want our government and our children to be adventurous and
entrepreneurial, we must accept that mistakes will be made. Under-budgeting, as
any entrepreneur will tell you, is very real in any new, untested venture. Are
we telling our government to only do things when they have 100% confidence, and
not risk making any mistake? That’s what kiasu
is, and we don’t want that.
Main criticism of PAP
For a lot of my friends, it’s the arrogance. They may
believe that the PAP is the best party to run the country, but they are voting
opposition anyway because they have had enough of the arrogant PAP style. That’s
heart over head, but that’s what we are like as human beings. Our minds will be
closed to the best logic if our hearts are not there. We will accept the most
perverse logic, even to our deaths, if our hearts are won. And politics is
about winning hearts, not minds. So for my friends whose hearts are lost to the
PAP, even if Pullitzer prize winning arguments are presented here (or estate
upgrading), it is of no use.
That arrogant style was actually appreciated by an earlier
generation of Singaporeans, who were less educated. It wasn’t called arrogance
then. It was called strength of conviction, it was called leadership. It was
called decisiveness and resolve. In the 60s to the 80s, we needed those
qualities in a leader, in our leaders.
But the electorate is a lot more educated now, and there are
a lot of well qualified people who can run the country very well. Their
response is “look, if you cram another hard truth down my throat, I am going to
stand up and take away the ruling mandate away from you.” And that is precisely
what a few very qualified candidates are trying to do now, representing all the
other Singaporeans who have had it up to here with the “I-know-it-all,
you-just-listen-to-me” style. For the previous generation, the PAP may have
been the only answer. It is not so with this generation.
Can the PAP be less arrogant? I think PM Lee is trying, as
we can see from his apology yesterday. Is it too little too late? Will the PAP
really change in the future? I believe in PM Lee’s resolve, but that’s just me.
What are my views about the opposition? On an overall basis,
I don’t think that a multi-party parliament is necessarily a better one. In fact, when we look at parliaments around
the world, the multi-party ones are more often than not mired in disagreement,
unable to move forward. The evidence just isn’t there. Having said that, however,
I am a fan of Sylvia Lim (WP), Pritam Singh (WP), Michelle Lee (SDP) and Nicole
Seah (NSP) and hope to hear them speak more often.
So what am I saying? What is my conclusion? I am not
persuading anyone to vote PAP. That would be arrogant of me.
I want to defend some of PAP’s past policies, especially if they were,
in my mind, done right and with the interests of Singapore at heart but which
have been misperceived. A few of my friends, who know me to be pro-PAP, have
actually asked me to defend the PAP. Perhaps they are sitting on the fence and
struggling with the decision and want to hear a different side from what is
mainly circulating online now. I hope this helps.
Overall, I hope Singaporeans will vote who they honestly believed to be the best candidates for them. If this is done, I think that we, as a country, should be ok. I fear the Singaporean who says “I think the
opposition candidate in my constituency is crap, but I will vote him anyway
because I think the PAP is arrogant.” I cannot agree with that.
This is another post about my sentiments regarding the coming general election. I have never been so interested in politics. I found myself almost reading every news articles relating the GE, reading blogs and viewing videos pertaining to the coming election. According to the ruling party, 'the ground is not as sweet'. There are a lot of resentment in the general population regarding the high costs of living, the high cost of public housing, the influx of foreign workers/talents, woes of public transports, traffic jams despite all the measures & expensive policies by the government. The list of complaints against the ruling goes on and on... Nothing seem right... And everyone's blaming the PAP. PM Lee also admitted that sometimes the policies didn't turn out the way they expected. But he promised that they will change.
The voices for change are loud and clear almost everywhere. And people are looking for change... People are looking for a total change. They want to vote in the opposition parties. Parties that promise to be the voice for the people in the parliament. Everywhere I looked, people are writing, complaining and advocating for change. Someone even wrote that he would even vote for a monkey as long as he's with the opposition. Is the current state really so bad that we have people saying "even my dog can do a better job'? Meanwhile, the supporters of PAP appeared to be weak and accused to be ignorant and myopic by the supporters of the opposition parties.
Be fair to the ruling party, without them, Singapore wouldn't be what it is today. Within 40 years, Singapore has developed from a 3rd world to a 1st world nation with practically nothing, leaving our neighbouring countries trying to play catch up. What it has achieved today is really nothing short of a miracle. This phenomenal success could not be possible without the governance and leadership of the current ruling party, the PAP.
Some people say the success of Singapore is due to the people's hard work. Eh... But just think about it. Farmers and lots of other people in other countries also work very hard if not harder, but are their lives any better? If not for the policies and the good governance, Singapore won't be what it is today. It doesn't happen by accident.
Many netizens are vocal in expressing their views and were seen trying to get people to vote for change, vote for opposition, vote for 1st world parliament. When others expressed their support for the ruling party and their gratitude for the ruling party, they were viewed as being myopic and ignorant by the oppositions' supporters. While I've looked at enough videos, blogs, forums, articles that focused on the faults and weaknesses of the ruling party and the strong calls to vote for change, I've decided to recognize and appreciate what we have.
A lot of Singaporeans are taking everything that we're enjoying today for granted. I'm happy with what we have now, what Singaporeans take for granted...
1) Singapore is a safe country. We can be out late at night and not worry about being robbed. Crime rates are low. In neighbouring countries, it's common to hear of people getting robbed or kidnapped, even in their own homes.
2) Singapore is consistently rated one of the least corrupted countries in the world by Transparency International. Those caught are severely dealt with. In a neighbouring country, the police seem especially efficient at 'catching' speeding cars. We were once caught for just driving 2km/h above the speed limit. And the 'fines' go straight into their pockets. But with crime rates so high, why aren't the police spending more time and effort catching the real criminals?
3) We have our basic needs met, including electricity, clean water and high-speed internet access which we take for granted. For a resource limited country, Singapore is able to sell treated clean water to its much bigger neighbour. We're now considered 'the water expert', sharing our know-how with other countries facing water problems.
4) We have one of the best education systems around the world. It's recognized and others are trying to learn from us. Our school facilities are world-class. There are many paths for everyone. What we enjoy in our schools are so readily provided that we do not realise how lucky we are. Just visit a school in a neighbouring country and you will know what I mean. That's the reason why we can attract so many foreign students. Singapore is able to provide what their country can't. Sure it's a stressful system and I do hope that they can do away with PSLE in the future and I do dream about a class size of 20. I agree that more can be done and provided for children with special needs. But I believe the ministry is already taking steps to change. The reason the opposition parties are able to field in so many credible candidates is also a testimony for the success of our education system.
5) We have a strong economy. Considered one of the 4 Asian Tigers, Singapore is the fastest growing economy with a 14.5% growth in 2010. We have good variety of jobs around. Unemployment is at 2%. This is in the midst of the financial crisis when other countries are facing high unemployment, countries that needed bail outs. From what I know, no Singaporeans had to resort to working overseas as maids or travel to a neighbouring country to be a factory worker as there are really no jobs locally. While other bigger and 'richer' countries are facing debts, Singapore was able to overcome the economic crisis and make a speedy recovery due to the prompt and effective measures and policies by the government. While I had my questions regarding the plans for the Integrated Resorts, this proved to be a right decision to boost the economy. What about the social ills, what about people getting addicted to gambling? Yes, always blaming the government for everything that goes wrong. I say why blame government for the bad choices that people make for themselves.
6) Public transport is convenient, from MRT trains to LRT, buses and taxis. Almost everywhere in Singapore is accessible by public transport that are readily available at regular intervals. Yes, it's crowded during peak hours, but isn't it the same in all the busy cities? Read in the news today about the light rail system in KL that's really in a mess. Images of people sitting on top of trains and buses in India also come to mind...
7) There are a lot of public services and facilities that serve the needs of the residents. We have many good public community and regional libraries that are really easily accessible to everyone. And the best part is it's free. There are many public swimming pools, community centres/clubs and parks. Of course, there can be more and better ones.
8) Public housing is good and always improving. The new flats look better each time. Prices of housing are high. But look at the major cities, everyone has the same problem- Hong Kong, Tokyo, BeiJing, Shanghai, New York, etc. The government recognized the problem of high prices and is looking into ways to control the pricing but careful not the crash the market at the same time. More flats will be built and they will be built faster too. New flats are getting smaller.... Look at the apartments in Hong Kong and you'll be thankful with what you have.
9) We enjoy a high standard of living. Almost everyone has a flat-screen TV (including a pupil who is under financial assistance and lives in a 1-room flat). I see primary school children carrying mobile phones, friends who upgrade their mobile phones every year. Some say the national pastime is shopping and traveling. An opposition candidate said that it's better to live in Malaysia or Russia. If u think it's cheap to live in Malaysia, imagine your earnings in Ringgit, dollar for dollar. Imagine paying $5 for your chicken rice at a coffeeshop or $30 for a bottle of Nutella at the supermarket. I think that's not a fair comparison in the first place. Should compare with another developed nation. Btw, Malaysia's per Capita Income is US$14600 while Singapore's is US$56, 522.
10) Singapore have one of the best government in the world. This is widely recognized but strange that only it's citizens are quick to find fault with it. It works in its own uniquely Singapore way, dominated by 1 party. The leaders have shown leadership with great vision. While they are not perfect, there are always areas for improvement. Sometimes they are wrong, but most of the times, they are right. Some of the opposition parties raise some issues and proposals that are attractive and the ruling party should seriously consider them and make them happen.
Actually, there're many other good things and accomplishments I can see that I can add to my list... All these are the 'little things' that many have already taken for granted. Many people have chosen to just focus on the negatives and ignore the positives. And the supporters of Peace & Prosperity are considered 'myopic'? The bottom line is...
We do have a good government, we can help make it become better by providing timely feedback and make our views known. Life's good and it'll get better. But there's no need to change a good government with good track records for opposition parties with no track records. They are good and can get better. Although I question the PAP's choice of some new candidates, most of the new candidates are really capable and credible. I prefer a first class government to a first class opposition. Can't imagine parliament with 2 parties. Think Taiwan politics...
I still choose to believe in Peace And Prosperity and I want to "風雨同舟, 共创未来!" I also believe after this election, the government will listen more and react more promptly to the voices of its people. There is no such thing as a perfect government because you really can't please everyone. If you know of a perfect government, let me know.
Come May 7, after the election day, I just cannot imagine PAP losing majority of the seats since so many people out there vowed to 'vote for even monkeys'. So they think the opposition parties who are so good at 'attacking' the current government can do a better job than them? It's always easy to complain and finger point when things go wrong. And the oppositions and supporters are doing a darn good job at blaming the ruling party for everything that had gone wrong. But honestly, who's perfect? You've never made a single mistake in your life? Do you expect others to condemn you just for your mistake while ignoring all your other contributions. Come on, be fair! What about giving credit for all that they have done right? So do people honestly think the opposition parties can do a better job? Imagine the next parliament with 7 political parties... Is this really what Singaporeans want? With so many different voices, life's going to get better then?
Having a choice is good but that doesn't mean that it's going to be a better choice. Look at the bigger picture. Be careful about what you wish for. You may just get your wish. Change will come, for better or for worse...
Can't believe that there are so many unhappy people out there who can't wait to vote out the ruling party. Someone even wrote that he will even vote for monkeys with the opposition. People blaming the gahmen for everything. There seem to be more negative voices than positive ones.
Pls don't oppose just for the sake of opposing! Be thankful for what Sg has achieved so far. Just look at other countries and it's not difficult to realize that things could be much worse. What Singapore has achieved today is nothing short of a miracle with no land, water, people, resources to start with. All these accomplishments are really not possible without our Sg government. Others recognized Sg gahmen to be one of the best in the world, but her own citizens 'curse and swear' at them. What about recognition of all these accomplishments? 身在福中,不知福?
Honesty, life's not that bad in Sg! The problems we are facing are the same in many other countries. The Sg gahment didn't cause all these problems. Yes, life can be better. I can only say it's easier to 'complain'? Be contented, happy, thankful and grateful with what you have, things could be worse, much worse. Don't take everything for granted.
Vote wisely! Vote for capable candidates and party that can make positive differences. Please don't vote for monkeys unless you want to go bananas!
I need your urgent advice about employing a maid. As a busy mother, I need someone reliable to help out at home.
My maid is from Profits Agency Pte (PAP) and she has worked for me for a long time. Her mother worked for my parents and did an excellent job, so I had faith in her. For several years her performance has been very good, but recently she has become arrogant and insensitive, and is making lots of mistakes.
1) She flooded my kitchen – she told me that the drain pipe has blocked (she was supposed to clear it once a month but didn’t). Then she assured me that it is very rare and won’t happen again in the near future. Guess what? It flooded again within a year!
2) She didn’t close a window and my terrier dog escaped. I was so worried cos he is dangerous and could bite lots of people. After the incident, she didn’t apologise and just shrugged her shoulders saying “What to do, it has happened.” Fortunately my neighbor found the dog and we locked it up again.
3) Without consulting me, she has been bringing in strangers for my house's maintenance work. She says they charge low wages and keep costs down, but they eat my food, make a lot of noise and rest on my bed. I think they even tried to seduce my husband. It stopped feeling like my home, more like a cheap hotel, and I don’t always want to come back at the end of the day.
4) When she first came to work for me, I instructed her to clean the different parts of the house at least once a week. But for some time she has stopped taking care of the bedrooms of PP and H; they are now dirty and messy. I asked why and she told me that the kids had been disobedient, so she was neglecting their bedrooms as a punishment (she has forgotten that she is paid to clean all the rooms).
Even though my maid has worked for me for many years and I value what she has done in the past, I think she is now getting complacent. Her attitude is imperious and dismissive. She ignores my comments and basically treats my feedback as "noise". I wrote to the agency about her behavior; they assured me that they are the best agency around and all their maids are “Commited to Serve” – but I think it is just rhetoric and I don’t see that in her actions. Her salary is much higher than maids in other countries, but the agency say this is to keep her honest and stop her moving to another employer. They say there is a limited supply of maids, and Singapore isn’t big enough for more than one good maid agency, so I should not trust their competitors.
I have to decide whether to renew my maid’s 5-year employment contract. When we discussed this she said that she is now part of a team, and if I want her I must also accept her friends doing part-time work for me. One friend is very inexperienced, can't do basic tasks or explain what she intends to do. I suspect that she is actually underage. When interviewed, she only seemed interested in her days-off and visiting Universal Studios. When she couldn't answer my questions she stomped her foot and exclaimed, "I don't know what to say!" But I am still expected to pay her a high salary.
Now there happen to be a few other maid agencies - Workhard Pte (WP), New Solutions Pte (NSP), Super Personnel Pte (SPP) and Star Domestica Pte (SDP) - that offered me some helpers who seem sincere, genuine and intelligent. They are keen to work, willing to assist me and have a good attitude. I know that they may take a bit of time to learn how everything works, but frankly I am inclined to give them a chance.
People say that the devil you know is better than one you don’t. But I feel that I can’t tahan my current maid anymore. Do you think I should sack my current maid and try out a new one? Appreciate your advice.
I've finally booked our SQ flight to Taipei next month. This is going to be our the holiday for just the 2 of us after such a long time. We have been putting off traveling or booking any holidays for the 'fear' that I may get pregnant and thus have to forfeit our holidays. Before this, we already don't travel as often as I would have liked to. In the past, I used to travel at least twice yearly with my friends, traveling between a week to 3 weeks each time. Jerome is not that much into traveling. When I first went to Langkawi for a short getaway with Jerome, it was his first holiday in 6 years. He had been too busy building his business. Other than our 2 weeks honeymoon to Switzerland and Italy, our holidays have been restricted to a maximum of 6 days.
Of course, the promotional airfare by SQ was quite irresistible. The fare was close to 50% off the usual price, making it even lower than JS. So I decided to go ahead and book the air tickets. If I'm really so lucky to get my BFP this month (after all this time and when I'm not on Clomid or Letrozole?), I'll just have to forfeit the air tickets. If not, we're still going for our holidays. Either way, I'll be happy.
Now, there's something else for me to look forward to... 5D4N in Taipei :)
He is indeed a miracle baby. It was a miracle for him to be conceived in the first place. And after his mother had carried him for 9 months, he was born a beautiful and healthy baby. But what drove his mother to decide to bury her baby alive in a flower bed on a roof-top garden on a multi-storey carpark? Fortunately for the baby, an old man smoking nearby heard his crying and decided to investigate and rescued the poor baby from his shallow grave just in time. Interestingly, it was reported that the 'hero' here is a father of 11.
I'm glad that the baby is now "in a stable condition". Hope that everything's going to turn out fine for him. 大難不死必有後福. All the best to you, little one.
It's a crazy world! There are many couples trying desperately to have children. And there are those who have them and then (tried to) kill them...
If the mother really can't take care of the child, she could have seek help and put her child up for adoption. But to try to strangle and bury her innocent baby alive??? That's madness! She should have given the baby a chance for a better life. There're lots of couples looking at adoption but not enough babies available. Couples who are able to provide a loving home for the children if given a chance to. I should know...
Last Sunday, Jerome and I went to my friend's baby shower for her first born. The first baby shower we attended in many years. I hated attending baby showers because of the inevitable question "When's your turn?" Anyway, I decided to attend the one last Sunday and managed to drag Jerome along.
I haven't been in constant contact with my Secondary School friend. The last time we met was over a year ago when she visited my home with her husband. I did not know she was even pregnant until I received her SMS invitation to attend her first baby's 1st month celebration. She has got married a few months after Jerome and I. I guessed she must have taken quite a long time to conceive her baby.
Anyway, she asked me THE question "When's your turn?" I told her honestly that we're working on it, been working on it for a long time." She asked me whether I've considered IVF so I told her that we're looking into it. It turned out that her baby was conceived through IVF. She also shared other positive stories from other couples she know who also conceived their babies through IVF. And about her daily injections for over 50 days with the needles growing in size and dosages. Her husband was the one doing the injections for her as she was afraid of needles. Well done, my friend! Anyway, the bottom line was it was all worth it. Her precious princess made everything that she's gone through worth it.
Later, I shared with Jerome whatever my friend had shared with me. I remarked that this is a positive sign since my friend shared with me so many success stories. Jerome couldn't get pass the idea of the 50+ injections. He reminded me about his 'phobia' of injections. I told him I'm the one being injected, not him! He admitted that needle is his weakness. He said we should reconsider the whole IVF business and whether we really want to go through all these just for a child or another round of disappointment. He talked about an ex-colleague who had a child with special needs. Her advice to him was that sometimes it's better off to have no children. Just take things natural. The most important thing is that we're happy and contented with what we already have.
So think again...
But 1 thing's for certain, Jerome says "If we do not have children, we're going on holiday every CNY so we don't have people asking us "When's your turn?" or 'happily' telling us "So and so got married last year and now wife's giving birth soon. So we better 'buck up'. "
I couldn't agree more... In fact I'm looking forward to travelling somewhere now!
Think it was about over a week ago, I was reading the forum page in the papers. A lady wrote in to say why her husband decided to stop at 2 and not 4. That is stop at having 2 children... The bottom line is that they decided that they have just enough time, energy and $ for 2 children and not more. Hence, she aborted her last pregnancy that consisted of a pair of twins. Couldn't she have given birth to them and give them up for adoption later, giving them the gift and chance of life?
Then a few days later, another lady wrote in to share why she and her husband decided to have 6 children... But of course, her children are quite grown up now and somehow they have managed.
These are 2 women from 2 different generations.
What about me?
I think I like the number 3. But I'll be lucky to have 1!
Btw, the latest attempt on Letrozole has failed again. So we've decided to go for IVF after letting my body rest for a month before more medication... Told hubby that he will have to learn to give me my daily injection, play his part and overcome his 'fear of needles'.
Jerome and I were somewhere in China, having a holiday. We came across an old woman carrying a really chubby baby with rosy cheeks. It turned out that she was asking for someone to adopt the little baby. Her daughter ran away from home after giving birth to the baby and she was too old and poor to care for the baby. Without hesitation, Jerome and I decided to adopted the little baby, giving the old lady $$$ for her 'gift'. We have 'bought' the most precious gift!
I can't remember what happened afterwards as I woke up from my 'sweet' dream or strange dream. Anyone into analysis of dreams?
The year 2011 has started and we're into its 3rd month already! I've not been updating this blog for quite sometime now. Been kinda lazy :P As it turned out, I'm still not back in school despite my P's attractive offer cos of some rules of MOE. Anyway, keeping my fingers crossed that I'll still be able to return to school on a part-time basis in Term 3.
Last month, we've managed to see a new gynea at KK who prescribed a new medication- Letrozole that's suppose to be better than Clomid. It costs a lot more too. For 10 tablets to be taken over 5 days, it was about S$100. It was actually a post-breast cancer treatment medication that is also often prescribed over the last decade as a fertility drug. Apparently, the makers of the drug had issued warning letters to doctors against prescribing them as fertility drugs. But nevertheless, I guess Letrozole is still being frequently prescribed. But we've been warned that one has to be absolutely certain that one is not pregnant before having Letrozole as it's detrimental to the development of the fetus.
Anyway, after I've completed my 1st cycle of Letrozole, I was still spotting and was suffering from a pain and a swell in my right neck. 3 days later, I was still having fever and the swell on my neck was obvious. I was getting worried, hoping that it was nothing serious. I googled and tried to look for reasons to explain my 'sufferings', I called the KKIVF centre and asked if all these were the side effects of Letrozole. I was advised to visit the 24hr clinic at KK to see a doctor.
Finally at 11p.m., we finally went to visit the doctor just to 'buy some peace". After a urine test, doctor spotted a faint line on the pregnancy kit and I saw a glimpse of hope while the dr went on to suggest a blood test to confirm if I was really pregnant. Jerome was horrified! Could his 'sotong' wife started on Letrozole when she was pregnant all along? He had read up on all the side effects of Letrozole. For the first time, he hoped that it's a false positive. Later when I was out of the consultation room, Jerome returned to ask the doctor some questions of his own. The doctors confirmed his fears about all the side effects of Letrozole. He asked her if the pregnancy test is positive, should he be happy or should he worry. Doctor said to take things one step at a time. At least it proved that my egg and his sperm are working.
Along our home home, I kept telling Jerome that it's not possible for me to be pregnant. My menses has just ended and I can't be pregnant before that as I've already used the test kit before starting on Letrozole.
Sometime after midnight, KK called, "Mdm Tan, this is calling from KKH. Your blood test results is out and we are sorry to inform you that you are not pregnant." I had very mixed feeling upon hear this. Kinda disappointed that I'm still not pregnant. Relieved as we didn't have to worry about the effects of Letrozole. So all our worries were for nothing. But I'm not sure if I would try Letrozole for another cycle. I certainly hope I don't have to :)